Working With It

I haven’t updated this blog with anything lately.

Here is the last three designs I did on my nails recently:

Naked, and Spontaneous by China Glaze.

Liquid Leather, White on White, Knockout Orange, In the Lime Light, and Red Pearl, all by China Glaze.

Frostbite, and In the Lime Light by China Glaze

Liquid Leather by China Glaze, Spark-tacular from Sephora by OPI

Grandpa Joe

That’s my Grandpa Joe. Well, ok, technically he isn’t my grandpa but he might as well be. He has been in my life ever since I can remember. He’s the sweetest, funniest, cutest man I have known and I feel so blessed to have had him in my life.

Unfortunately, he has Prostate Cancer. He’s had it on and off for the last several years. He beat it for a while but then it came back. So for about a year now, he’s been on chemo and other experimental drugs. Sadly, they have stopped working. Now he is in a lot of pain and stays in a hospice. He’s on pain meds but that can only help him so much.

I can’t see him right now because I live several hundred miles away in a different state. My mom is with him, and has been helping him and his wife out. I just wish I could see him again before it’s too late. I know I won’t be able to. I can’t afford it at the moment and I can’t take time off of work. I don’t even know if I’ll be able to go to his funeral.

What really kills me is that he has to suffer like this until he dies. He has to go through the pain and sickness. Not to sound childish, but it’s not fair. He’s such a good man. He doesn’t deserve to go through this and neither does his wife. His kids are being absolutely awful to him and his wife (not their mother) and I just don’t understand it.

The Catholic in me says that this is the way God wants it. That maybe Joe’s atheism may be a reason why he is suffering.

That seriously makes me want to slap myself in the face. I hate thinking like that. I know that’s not why he is suffering. God loves all His children, no matter what. I don’t believe God could hate anything He created. He loves us. He may not like us at times but He loves us all the same. Mothers and fathers are like that. They may not always like their children or like what their children do, but they will always love their children. And God is everyone’s father.

Please keep Joe in your thoughts and/or prayers. I know he won’t be miraculously healed but thoughts and prayers may help ease his soul when he passes.

You don’t have to be depressed to be a pessimist.

People normally believe that when you’re a pessimist, you’re depressed. While in many cases this is true, it is not a universal truth. For example, me. I am a pretty happy person right now. Things are going really well for me. Despite the fact that I still have every day stresses and some tragedies, I am a pretty happy person. I’m pleased with where I am right now. Pleased, not completely satisfied.

But I am a pessimist. I’m one of those people who expect the worst and hope for the best. I just can’t help myself. I try to be positive but I always have that nagging, doubtful voice at the back of my mind telling me that the other shoe is going to drop.

So you don’t have to be depressed to be a pessimist.

That awkward moment when someone you’re not interested in asks you out…

Why do I always attrack the weirdos?

Had a guy come into work today, and he looked suspicious. He went straight to the back of the store and was only there for about two minutes before he hauled ass out of the store. Unfortunately, I was busy with another customer and so was my coworker, so neither one of us could greet him and watch him closely. But then he came back. So I did what company policy dictates: I gave him Legendary Customer Service.

I barely said “Hi, how are you today?” before he started asking me personal questions, like “are you in school?” “how long have you worked here?” “do you plan on living here for the rest of your life?” etc. etc.

Fucking weird shit. I was polite and smiled and was honest but inside I was hoping he wasn’t going to ask me out. And what does he do? He asks me what I’m doing after work. I was honest. Going home to eat and sleep because I have to open the store tomorrow. Then he proceeded to ask me what I was doing tomorrow after work. Sofa shopping with my grandma (ok, that was a lie). So then he asked me for my phone number. I didn’t want to be a total bitch so I said sure.

First, he gave me his. And then he asked me for mine…….God forgive me, I lied like a rug. Gave him a number I completely made up on the spot. Sorry to those folks who get a weird call from a guy looking for a chick named Anna. Whoops.

I just hope he doesn’t come looking for me at work. God, I really don’t want a stalker.

Very pleased.

I finally have my ID Channel back. One of my all time favorite TV channels ever. Great shows, most of which you can actually learn from. I also got Showtime, Encore, Starz, and Flix for free for 3 months. Unfortunately, I got Showtime a little later because the Franchise is over =(